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Starting Over at 24 years old

I have never felt more lost in my entire life and now i just want to begin again

I am 24 years old and have yet to even graduate college and now will delay graduation for another degree. I graduated high school in 2018 and was excited to begin my studies at a local state school in my city.

I initially pursued engineering, so I tried to pursue Chemical Engineering because that is where the money lies. I tried hard with the prerequisites but after withdrawing a semester and going part time during the pandemic and trying again in my fourth year…lead to only academic probation my first semester of what was supposed to be my final year of college and straight Cs in my final semester.

I then changed my major to Philosophy and took Computer Science classes hoping my math prereqs would help me get a CS degree….it did not work well.

Now in my 6th year of college I have only finished my Philosophy degree but I have just failed two classes my last semester and I also ONLY took two classes that semester in both advanced statistics and Linear Algebra. In my defense I was no longer taking any antidepressants and my rumination cycle of past trauma was …BAD.

After this failure, I realized that I cannot keep pursuing something that I am not good at, so I am am now going to pursue a second Bachelors in Communications.

By doing this I can boost my shitty cumulative GPA and graduate with a useful degree.

During this time I just want to recover and try to save up for my new degree as I have now ran out of Grants and scholarships so I need to save up and pay out of pocket. Hopefully I am able to graduate with minimal debt and pay it off with the two jobs I have.

While I have never felt more behind in life in comparison to my peers, I will nonetheless have to be honest with myself and take the path of least resistance and simply enjoy my life.

At this stage of my life I have learned that it is never too late to start over especially when you have a good support system.

Right now, I simply want to take it slow and easy.

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    aamenra85

    Hey Brie, this was a lovely post. The beginnings of your life’s journey can be much like a roller coaster. But it sounds like you have drive and determination. Coming from this old bird, keep it up. If I can offer just one piece of advice, later on in life you learn its about the journey and not the destination. I heard this a lot and never quite understood what it meant, but now at 39, I totally get it, your experiences are everything as you grow older, because you can never go back. I know you feel behind, but you can never have enough schooling, learning, or education. Gain as much knowledge and experience as you can and live and BE in the moment, because as you get older its those moments you’ll look back on and become nostalgic over. And its always better to look back and be able to smile. Good luck!!

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